Saturday, February 8, 2014

Happy Birthday Olivia❤️

 As I sit here and watch this beautiful blond haired blue eyed almost 3 year old proudly toddle herself around her glorious world,  a piece of my heart breaks.....  Her name is Tatiana and tonight, I feel very close to her.  She is Olivia's Mother. I know many of you will correct me and tell me that I am her Mother but Tatiana is the one that carried her, loved her and nourished her for 38 weeks.  She gave her life and loved her enough to courageously walk out of that hospital on February 9, 2011, alone.   She knew Olivia needed more than she could give her and only the heart of a true mother could go through that much hurt.  It's because of this, I will forever share my cherished role as Olivia's Mother with this amazing woman.  I have had the very special privilege of being in contact with Olivia's birthfather and I'm comforted tonight by the fact that he knows how much she is loved and that she will be celebrated over the next two days like the princess she was born to be!   Olivia's parents wanted her.  They loved her.  They gave her the name Olga.  They baptized her and devoted her life to Jesus.  They gave her away not because she wasn't perfect.  They gave her away because they did not have the means to care for her.  They knew of the hopes of international adoption and held tightly to their faith knowing God would step in.  And he did just that!

Olivia will be home 2 years in May and continues to bless us with her unimaginable joy!  Tomorrow we will celebrate her 3rd birthday (2nd birthday home) and we are going big!   So a huge HAPPY BIRTHDAY to our beautiful Livvy Girl and a giant THANK YOU to all of you who helped us rescue this angel and bring her home!

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

The Big Plan.....

As we say hello to our home here in Kaiser for the very last time the true meaning of "bittersweet" is so clear to me. These walls surprisingly hold only the most beautiful days for our family.  Days filled not only health and healing but the most incredible feeling of love.  Love that lurked far beyond the fear and agony watching our beautiful girl go through some of her darkest of days...And she has had her fair share!

Very early on in this terrifying Cancer journey it was difficult to see this "Big Plan" that everyone spoke of.  How in the world did a plan so grand take the most beautiful perfect child and physically destroy her?  Not a day went by that I didn't beg him to come up with something different.  An altered plan, one that didn't involve the pain and heartbreak of Chemotherapy and it's wicked side effects.

As the hundreds of days in the hospital (yes hundreds) ticked by, each brought with it a refreshing start, a new beginning for us..  A mouth sore would heal, old bruises started to fade, a new hair could be spotted growing in and probably the most incredible of all, new lifelong friendships were forming!

Our family has grown over the last 7 months and we will never ever forget the love, support, compassion and incredible care that you all have given us.  Our hearts are full!  Thank you Kaiser Roseville for saving our girls life and providing us the strength we needed to get through each and every day...  We love you!


  Miracles were happening all around us and Chloe was responsible for all of them!  When anyone made the decision to walk through those double doors into her isolation suite, little did they know that they had just been sucked into a world that would change them in ways they never knew possible.  She radiates happiness and it's contagious!  She demands people to see nothing but beauty.  I love that tucked underneath  all the amazing chub, camouflaged within her, is an extra chromosome!  She allows everyone the opportunity to fall madly in love with everything about her.  The fact that she has Down syndrome (and Cancer) does not define this girl!  Chloe has taught us all how to look beyond what is so very visible on the outside and see what it means to have a soul so full of joy not even the most toxic poison could darken it...

 Chloe has been the inspiration for so many people, this tiny girl is changing lives!!!  We have people running marathons biking 100 miles around Lake Tahoe, losing weight, restoring their faith in God, adopting orphans, one sweet lady who has been following along on our facebook group has even quit smoking because of Chloe!  There is even a blood and bone marrow drive in Chloe's honor this coming April!  How awesome is that?  Gods perfect plan is all beginning to make sense...  Because of my sweet girl, lives will be saved!  He knew Chloe had it in her to fight like a soldier and be the change in the world he needed!

This chapter of our crazy lives is coming to a beautiful end.. We thank you all for all everything you have done to help us along the way!  The meals, the childcare, the carpooling the shoulders to cry on and most of all, the prayers! Our beautiful Chloe Bea will be home for good in a few weeks and what a celebration that will be!  See you all on the other end of the Cancer journey...  The SURVIVORS end!!!

Here's a few more pictures of our last weeks home together!

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Olivia's Fairy Tale

With all that's going on these days it's very easy to get seriously sidetracked but hidden between her sisters chemo treatments and blood transfusions the most amazing Heaven sent angel girl exists..

 With God as her editor, Olivia has written her own beautiful fairy tale and we feel abundantly blessed to be the main characters. I could never put into words the complete joy this miracle girl has brought into all of our lives. Thinking about the last 5 months of our lives, one would think that our days have been consumed by the agonizing fear that only a cancer diagnoses could bring but honestly, because of Olivia, only continued faith and hope occupy our thoughts! This entire fiasco was perfectly planned and it started with the birth of Miss Chloe Bea. The timeline of events from the day of her birth leading up to these seemingly endless hospital days were orchestrated by God with the most impeccable timing. Had Chloe not graced our family, our hearts would have never lead us to Olivia. Had Chloe been born with the "perfect" number of chromosomes, our hearts would have never led us to Olivia. Had we discovered that Chloe's mutated cell was producing those defective platelets just one week earlier, our hearts wouldn't have allowed us to move forward with Olivia's adoption and this amazing little girl...

...would still be alone.  The thought of that breaks my heart.  Nothing about the last 28 months of life for the Herrington family is a coincidence. The good, bad, and the ugly; it was all part of a heavenly fairy tale with the most glorious of happy endings... Olivia's story has touched endless lives and sharing her with the world has proven to be an inspiration for many more Fairy Tale endings...  Enjoy her incredible beauty...

As for Miss Chloe, what can I say?  She's doing great and spreading happiness throughout the world, LITERALLY!

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Happy Halloween:)

Happy Halloween!  It truly was a happy day.  A tad nontraditional but happy none the less.  Surprisingly, there was not one single moment of sadness today.  Sure, it stung a little waving to my tiny gnome through the window as my elevator door closed, but catching her 2000th kiss and seeing her smiling eyes peek above her mask made it all okay somehow.  Chloe is  my strength, my rock, my complete and total sunshine.  She is the reason that I am able to catch my breath every morning as I drive into that hospital parking lot.  I learned from Chloe early on in this seemingly impossible journey that not even something a huge as cancer stands a chance in Hell when it comes to the joy that this beautiful angel spreads.  She is contagious, addictive, unbelievably unforgettable and her wicked dance moves are not be reckoned with.  She has danced her way into the hearts and souls of pretty much every staff member at Kaiser. From the house keeping crew to the oncologists, she has truly changed lives... Including mine.  Her spirit cannot be broken so I have no choice but to hang on and ride out the storm with my girl and ya know what????  It's proven to be the most "perfect storm".  Scary and completely unpredictable but absolutely perfect all the same.  Believe me, I have had serious words with my main man upstairs.  I have thrown myself on the floor of that hospital room on several occasions and pleaded with him to find some other way to execute his "plan".  Any plan that involves his most perfect creation violently vomiting blood can't be a productive one.  Right?  Honestly, I haven't even come close to being able to answer the, "why my Chloe Lord", but I have made peace with the fact that Chloe is exactly where she needs to be for exactly the right reasons.  I'm confident that it will all be crystal clear soon enough and I'm willing to wait... So is Chloe!

She is doing great!  She handling the Chemotherapy like the warrior she has always been and she is blowing everyone away with her strength.  Round 3 is starting on Friday and on Monday we will be officially halfway there!  Sadly it looks as though we may be in the hospital through February but that's okay.  We are doing just fine!

Miss Livvy Mae is absolutely amazing!  She is growing up so fast and reaching those milestones like a rockstar!  She will be cruising around in no time and I don't even want to imagine life with the two of them running through my house!  I can't wait!!

Halloween took on a whole new meaning this year...  Witnessing Livvy enjoying her very first Trick or Treating experience tonight was an incredible gift.  Wow!  Think about her last Halloween:(  I did and it brought tears to my eyes.  Happy tears!  My sweet, sweet cheetah Girl!

 Hopefully I'm getting back into the blogging groove!  Time will tell:)  I do have a Facebook page called Chloe's Corner that I do daily updates and post TONS of pictures on.  Please find us and join in!  

Monday, October 8, 2012

A Quick Update

Let me first apologize for falling of the face of the earth.  Life these days in our newly discovered world of cancer is extremely time consuming.  As most of you know (at least those who still wander back to my blog) our precious Chloe Bea was diagnosed with Leukemia while we were in Ukraine.  She is currently going through intense Chemotherapy.  We are in an isolation room in the hospital for the next 5 months:(
 She is amazing and handling the chemotherapy like the warrior princess we all knew she was!

Now for Miss Livvy Mae!!!  To say she is thriving would be a huge understatement... She is absolutely the joy of our lives!  3 months ago she couldn't hold her head up without support and today she is crawling around the house and getting into everything!  

 Chloe and Livvy are the best of friends and we cannot wait for the day when we bust her out of this hospital!


I promise to try and update again soon..

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Through her eyes....

"I was blind but now...... I SEE!!!!!"

Amazing Grace!

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Monday, July 2, 2012

Our 3 prestigious clubs... And Chloe's very special BIRTHDAY WISH... (at the end of the post:)

On July 9th, 2010, we involuntarily joined the first of 3 clubs. On this truly incredible day, our lives, and the lives of so many people that love us, changed forever. Chloe Beatrice Herrington made her entrance into our family and honestly, since that day, every single one of us has had an extra pep in our step! She is a bright spot in this world that nothing could ever make dim. Not even you, Cancer!!!!

So, you may have guessed that our first club is Club Ds (Down syndrome).God is the only one who decides who the members of this amazing club and thankfully he chose us:) The lifelong friendships we have made in the short 23 months that Chloe has been on this earth is more of a blessing than I could even begin to explain. Our family quadrupled overnight! There are many qualifications that he has set in place for the members of Club Ds but the most important one is unconditional love and we have learned the meaning of that kind of love1000x over with Chloe! She has expanded the size of our hearts in ways only God himself will truly understand. We have come to realize today, that he used that unconditional love to guide us directly through the gates (literally) to the membership office of our next club...

Yep..... That's right..... Welcome to Club RR (Reece's Rainbow). Again, this is a club that wasn't in our future family plans. We've been members for over a year now and we have come to understand how this was a club that has had a special place reserved just for us since the beginning! It's through Reece's Rainbow that we have made even more friendships and watched our "family" grow by leaps and bounds yet again! Without the love and support from our RR family, this Heaven sent Angel wouldn't be sleeping next to me at this very moment:)

Club RR is also in desperate need of new members.... There are honestly lives of countless beautiful children depending on this membership to reach max capacity! If you haven't already, please take a second to check out this beautiful club and see what your missing:) If today isn't your time to join, please consider helping out a family that is trying to raise their dues. Here are a few families very near and dear to my heart. They are in a race against time to save the life of their child: The Jaco family lives here in Sacramento and they are working like crazy to bring this beautiful baby boy home!
The next family is the Sheffield Family, also a local Sacramento family. Their sweet boy "Vinnie" needs to come home! He is 4 already and so desperately needs the love of his Mama..
Another Family is the Morse Family. They are in the process of adopting Princess Xenia. Xenia was was my first true love on Reece's Rainbow. Her Mommy and Daddy have already made one trip her country and have now fallen hopelessly in love. Sweet baby is in need of heart surgery, so time is not something Xenia has on her side:( They are still about $8000 short on funds for their final trip to bring Xenia home. Each one of these families, along with many others working with Reece's Rainbow to bring their babies home would do just about anything to complete their life saving mission. Please help if you can! You all stood strong next to us and watched our beautiful "love story" unfold before your eyes. Wasn't all that hard work worth every single cent?

We think so and we're doing everything we can to make sure many other babies have the exact same glorious, happy, fairytale ending:)
So now for the 3rd Club..... This club is one that every parent lives in fear of joining. A club that turns your world upside down in a split second. A club that you wouldn't wish on your worst enemy. A club that you read horrendous stories about and say over and over to yourself, "But by the grace of God go I". A club that brings the strongest man to his knees in prayer. A club that has nothing to offer except complete devastation. A club that has even the most faith filled person questioning God and his plan...... This club is Cancer and I can't wait to pay our fees and anxiously wait for our membership to expire. I've heard it said so many times that we have become part of an amazing new family. We have already had families reach out to us and offer their love and support. We're truly feeling comforted and much less "alone" in Chloe's fight but I can't help to still wish we never became members in the first place...
As the days inch closer to Chloe's 2nd birthday it takes every ounce of strength to not fall apart. We should be be planning a party fit for a princess but instead the days are filling up with blood tests and bone marrow biopsies:( We plan on celebrating her birthday (July 9th) at home, quietly, with just us. We're saving the huge party for the day Chloe is officially Leukemia free... Who's coming??
Chloe does have a birthday wish however...... We have come in contact with a very special Mother who has fought along side her incredible son and helped him fight Leukemia and kick it in the behind. Jodee is working hand in hand with the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society by riding in a 100 mile bike ride in an effort to help find a cure and support cancer research for more effective treatments. Chloe's birthday wish is that all of you that would love to do do nothing more than celebrate her birthday with her make a donation to Jodee's Team in training in Chloe's name! This would mean the world to us as well as all the other families battling Leukemia. Please visit her Team Page and support Chloe fight through this remarkable woman!
Happy 4th of July!!!!

Love, Chloe<3<3<3
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